there's a NU BITCH IN MAH LIFE
and she's adorable adorable ADDOOORRABLLLEEEE lurrvelurrvelurrrrrrrrrveeee





meet the newest member of our family--
COOKIE (monster)!!!
she's a gorgeous rottweiler/golden retriever mix
and i LOVE her to bits


i'd like to write more
but yesterday's sleepover and this 'ickle puppy dawg kept me up till 5.30am in the morn and now i am knackered beyond belief


oh yes
a gazillion thanks to jenna for helping me fix the glitches with the template!
here's hoping that those "yellow-bellied/yellow-livered" friends of yours 'buck up' soon eh.
heh =)

this is for you
i think the lyrics say it all, my dear


+


I want somebody to share
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
He'll get my support
He will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
He will understand me


I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly


+


i hope you understand what i'm trying to say
whoever wrote this must have been feeling truly inspired at the time
also i think this sounds rather more eloquent than my usual incoherent spurts of conversation with you
doncha think?
haha


most of this song aptly describes what i've been trying (but usually failing miserably) to say to you


seeya in sydney in a week !!!
can't.hardly.wait.
-big hugs-




p.s. and because i'm crap at expressing myself-- check out sal's comment. golly gee that girl has got it absolutely right. (my psychic sistah! haha) my sentiments exactly.

christmas parties were DA BOMB
best best best christmas ever
the bubbly was flowing
the friends were, well, friendly
haha
good food good wine good music good ambience
i had SO much fun
although i think i kinda overdid it with the bubbly
had one HELLUVA hangover today
adrian was ever so popular with the chicks that i lost him twice during the night
some 'date' he turned out to be, huh.
-miffed-
hahaha kiddin' eh mister longkang
wj was 'rico suave' in his spiffy new hugo boss getup
tamara and huirui and clo were absolutely GORRRGEOUUUS too
their dresses!
their figures!
their shinyshiny haiiiir!
prettypretty faces!
and they're really really NICE.
which makes it impossible to hate them
haha
so jealous, i am
julien and matt were real sweet, entertaining me and introducing me to everyone last night
i'm sorry to say though, out of the 50 odd people i shook hands/air kissed (bleh if i could have i would have avoided it but nooooh some people just HAVE to do it eh.) with, i think i can only vaguely remember 10 or so
imbibing excessive amounts of alcohol--
isn't particularly good for your memory methinks
(also it causes cirrhosis of the liver so i should STOP DRINKING)
there were also many sillycrazynutty games and all sorts of fun things
plus there was a SUPERB live jazz band
jazzy christmas tunes are the best


(anyhow
if any one of you folkies has the photos please please send them to me and dont tell me to wait for those photos to appear somewhere next month because i'm certain they wont)


>>>


watched Shallow Hal on the telly today
and dont we all wish all the men/women on earth could be like hal (after his 'hypnosis session' w that robbins chappie)
i'd take inner beauty over physical beauty any day
no matter how hard it is to accept


i jokingly told 2 people i put on 5kg just now (haha)
the reactions i got were not particularly heartening


sigh.


>>>


also
i just wanted to say
FUCKWITS of the world, BURRRRN baby BUURRRN

the sun was SHINING TODAY
i had black pepper turkey and cornbread for lunch
carolling at les amis and the canteen last night went superbly
desert buffet at the marriott with the alumni after that was even better
i received calls from my DARLING DARLING FRIENDS (spence, iain, trist, tobs, ollie, immy, see, cammy, sally i think that's it? did i miss anyone out?) from the uk
got a call from ryan all the way from japan and even a funky lil' card too (many many thanks dear)
christmas party at the fullerton, and then another at the equinox to attend to in a while
hotels for sydney have been booked
a rough sorta itinerary has also been planned


even though i havent managed to get all my christmas gifts for everyone yet
i'm strangely calm
and even though its started to drizzle a little now
which means transport down to the fullerton will be a bit o' a headache
i'm not grumpy
even though i dont have my digi cam to bring with me to the parties tonight (sigh i'm sorry adrian i hope you find someone else who has one?)
i'm hardly frustrated


because its CHRISTMAS
and i feel blessed.


have a happy one, folkies


>>>


thanks leo for the photos from carolling last night


the batch of 2002 singers-- may leonard (clutching his new orange mogu pillow!) me johann


the 2003 sops behind-- karen eleena grace rachel
2002 sops in front-- may me
in the bus on the way out from acjc you can see the sports complex in the background!


leo me may in front of les amis (pity you can't much of the background eh) check out the nice descent in height from left to right hahaha

ROTK was in a word:
FAN-BLOODY-TASTIC
even though mr. pete jackson did make quite a few rather pointless changes to the plot
seeing it come alive on the big screen really did it for me

i'd watch it again, and again, and again
and if i could marry another man on top of rodrigo santoro
it would have to be vigggggoooooooviggovigggoooo i LURRRVE LURRRRRVE LURRRRRRRRVE him
(damned arwen/liv tyler i am insanely jealous of her wahaha)


and pffffftt
after 19 years of life
i've FINALLY come to the conclusion that i will never be one of those chicks who ooooze feminine charm
try as i might
its just not gonna happen, man
i have always been, and will always be
one of the boys
-sigh-
today was my 3rd time meeting denny's friend jeremy
and already i was being physically abused by those two
being strangled, poked, pinched, nudged etc
and when i hollered WHY MEEE
denny's response being "haiyah you're one of those rare girls who can take it mah... won't slap us on the face if we're violent with you, no actually you'd fight back so its ok"
-more sighs-
helllooo world say hi to tom-boy joycey
ack.



and here's mah main man denny and me after ROTK
i'm still utterly depressed that he won't be living at jane next year
i'm gonna miss this nutter like HELLL
nobody to do stupid things with
nobody to laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh with
nobody to be dyslexic with
nobody to do genetics with
nobody to run to with aaalllllll my problems
nobody to play crazy basketball with
BOOHOOHOOOOO
he's not going to be just 1 minute away from my room anymore
and just thinking about it makes me sad
i'm going to be so lonely without this fabulous friend of mine around


(p.s. thanks to Clo-ee darrrlin' for lending me her digi cam puh-leeease dont go back to london so soon because i haven't got enough of you yet)

today i am stressing out because


1. i have yet to settle MANY MANY MANY christmas pressies and worst of all pressies for my bestest friends remain unbought! ARRGH HAAALP this is SERIOUSLY BAD NEWS christmas is what, 3 days away and because i'll be out with mum tmr and singing on weds where am i ever going to find time to SHOP FOR THE PRESENTS?! shite i didn't even send out cards this year omg how come it feels as though everything's so rushed and packed and busybusy this year? sometimes i hate how commercialized christmas has become because seriously its not about the presents really it isnt! but then again i love getting them (haha) but i hate buying them for people because i never know what to get for guys, especially! and the worst gift is an impractical one, a gift you buy just for the sake of buying a gift and the person you bestow the gift upon is most likely going to chuck it to one side and never use it or use it at next year's gift exchange and i LOATHE having to do that but sometimes its either do that or risk offending the person with the "lack-of-present" this year BLEH!


2. my voice seems to be going a bit wonky all of a sudden it cracks and breaks and wobbles and i cant seem to hit my high notes! this is NO GOOD obviously because i have to sing on christmas eve why why why does this have happen to me NOW!!?


3. still havent settled accomodation for sydney yet. i was very mistaken, stacey DOES NOT have a house there and she hasn't found a place to stay yet either which means we cant bunk in with her and i really really abhor doing things at the very last minute (likesay booking rooms, if any are left, 1 week before departure but in this case NO CHOICE because of budget constraints?) because the propensity of something going wrong is very high + i most DEFINITELY do not wanna end up staying in some random grotty place or worse still, end up with no place to stay at all arrgh arrgh arrgh


4. parents are annoying the living daylights outta me yet again!!!! ARRGH


5. birthdays are coming up in jan and i havent even bought christmas pressies yet omg omg omg need to get really really really really nice things for these jan babies in sydney to make up for it and yet they've got EVERYTHING already so what more can i buy for them??? (hahaha eh ya'll should know who you are/who i'm talking about so TELL ME WHATCHOO WANT/NEED and i'll try me best to get it for you alrighty?)


6. i dont know what to pack for my trip haha ok this sounds so lame but seriously i dunno what to bring-- if this ends up like my turkey/greece trip i will either scream or cry or maybe just tear my hair out. not to mention i still desperately need to pick up a few items but because Joyce's Law of Last Minute Shopping dictates that You Will NEVER be able to find, much less buy, the things you need when you REALLY need them but they will magically appear on the shelves when you DON'T need them anymore... well. you get the drift


7. i am broke. like seriously dead broke. which kinda makes buying presents and other things sorta hard innit. oh crud.


8. the MNG sale is going to be OVER and i will not have even had a chance to STEP inside -bawls- (ok so i'm not so much stressing over this as wanting to complain about this haha)


9. i STILL havent found/bought a suitable dress to wear for the pishposh christmas parties at the fullerton/equinox yet oh NOOOOOO and have i already mentioned christmas is only 3 days away? also, refer the points number 6 and 7 and try to understand, please, why the new dress is most likely going to remain an unfulfilled fantasy which means i literally have nothing SUITABLE to wear. take note the use of the word 'suitable' here because to say i have nothing to wear would be just so wrong


10. the coordinator wants me to start my attachment right after the new year. good eh! the only problem being-- i'll be in bloody sydney then that's what!!! bleedin effing hell. and he's such a grumpy old man and i cant charm my way around people like that (unlike SOME people -coughcoughCLOcoughcough-) and he's done an ENORMOUS favour by helping me get the attachment so how how how am i going to tell him i can only start after the 10th??? and then i might be going to hanoi over the CNY period +++ so that means i'll have to take more leave argh argh argh STRESSSSSSS by then he'll probably have a HORRIBLE impression of me-- i'm not serious enough about the job blahblahblah alamak die! not to mention i know next to nothing about my psych all the stuff i crammed into my head before the exams has LONG SINCE DISAPPEARED INTO NOTHINGNESS -chews on lip- looks like this girlie's gonna have to HIT THE BOOKS AGAIN right after christmas SCREW IT ALL


11. i feel as though i'm starrrving to death even though i had a beyond massive pre-christmas turkey dinner + the works (ie: alcohol and egg nog and pudding etc) with julien and matthias and stephen and clo-ee but now i want to eat eat eat some more ACK!!! and it reeeaaallly doesnt help when i've got 2 boxes of godiva chocs, 5 blocks of ritter sport, countless boxes of neuhaus bitter choc biscottis and various other sinful delights just calling out to me from the fridge. can i just say? the diet/exercise thing has NOT been working out at all. if anything i've put on more weight. bad, bad news. how i'm ever going to have the guts to wear my new bikini in all my large-bellied glory (haha) in sydney i don't know


12. my digi cam died on me at dinner. DAMN YOU jules for spilling gravy on it you blithering idiot! -ROOARRRS IN FURY-



and if anyone actually managed to read all of that in its incoherent entirety
here's a HUGE PAT ON THE BACK for you
you most certainly deserve it

right now i'm trying my very best not to cry


my last doggie was put down yesterday


that makes it 3 dogs i've lost in the past year
dogs that've been with my family for so long it seems somehow seems horribly different without them around anymore


amber, 13, in may


victoria, 14, in july/august (i dunno-- i was in tassie)


and now bella, 14, in december



can this year get any worse


i miss them

woaaah.


them politicians and the (rather kinky) SKELETONS in their closets
tsk.


>>>


also
while the rich and the richer dine in comfort at Les Amis this christmas eve
forking out close to $300 for their meals (while i stand by the doorway singing haha)
i just spent a very pleasant evening with one of the ex-chefs from the very same rezzie
and he cooked up a STORM for our friend's dinner party
exquisite, absolutely EXQUISITE food
(thanks adrian for the invite now i am forever in your debt
and yes all the PRETTTTTY LADIES out there if you're looking for a HOT HUNK to date/marry/whatever leave me a msg and i'll hook you up with adrian-- he's not one of them eligible batchelors for nothing you know)

its not often that i actually praise chin tau and actually mean it
but kudos to this small power packed (ex) class rep of ours for organising a truly memorable class gathering at sizzler's tonight
a record crowd consisting of:
chintau
chunsong
tim
jooteng
aaron
teckchee
bertina
thelma
iris
grace
peiyi
melissa
sufei
qianyi
myself
and even mrs malini lim


some things never change
chin tau and iris seem to be stuck in a time warp
forever fulfilling their roles as class rep and assistant class rep respectively
when it came to paying the bill those 2 immediately stood up and did their stuff
right on!
haha


it was absolutely fandabidozi hanging out with them again
its been our hugest class outing since well, forever
and although i can't say i managed to catch up properly with everyone there
to see them after SUCH a long time was good enough
i havent seen people like thelma, sufei, bert, qianyi and most of the guys since getting our results earlier this year (omg was it only this year??! it feels like eons ago)
one of my biggest regrets in acjc was perhaps not spending enough time with my classmates
i was always too busy with CCA commitments
ah well
what's done is done
i'm just thankful that we're still keen enough to organise sporadic meetups
can't wait for the post-christmas pot luck party with them again next week!
happy christmas, 2SC6'02


oh and just ONE teeny tiiiny complaint
why is it
when you REALLY need a taxi
you can NEVAH get one
and when you want to call a cab
the lines are ALWAYS engaged
and when you FINALLY get through to an operator (after holding for close to 40mins)
you then realise that the people standing by the road next to you have actually managed to flag a cab down
thus negating the need for them to call a cab
and saving money in the process
GAAH.
and then the taxi you've called takes ages and ages to come
so much so that my group's the LAST one to leave
everyone else's parents/taxis have long gone
as tim so kindly (ah-hem) put it
"eh joyce did you bring some bad luck talisman with you ah"
bleh


photos from the night are up
if you wants 'em
come and get 'em
spread the word around please
thankee



a photo with every.single.person.who.came. in it. huzzah


the group minus 3 at the esplanade concourse


tabla número uno


tabla número dos


random group of us during dinner


the class girlies!


the class blokeys!


chintau wearing my earring. FUNKEEH MONKEEEY


iris.grace.melissa


melissa.grace.me


melissa.thelma.me.peiyi


qianyi.bertina.sufei


qianyi.me.iris


chunsong.chintau.me.peiyi


chunsong.teckchee.aaron.tim.peiyi.me


sufei.me.bertina


teckchee.jooteng.aaron.tim CANDID shot eh


thelma.me.jooteng

the ugly singaporean strikes again


sales are wonderful things to go to
but one thing that inevitably puts me off--
are the PEOPLE


it always aggravates me at how throngs of people crowd outside the lifts
as in--
RIGHT outside the lift
and how they always display an amazing lack of intelligence by attempting to SQUEEEZE, unsuccessfully, into an already jam packed lift without letting people get out of the lift first
and then when you try and move out of the lift
they give you REALLY dirty looks and refuse to budge until you actually have to physically push them aside
DIS-BLOODY-GUSTING!
i mean c'mon
the fuckin lift ain't gonna go anywhere eh?!


while we're on the topic of lifts
i also HATE it when people, ESPECIALLY MEN
madly dash out of the lift without thinking of holding the door open for the rest
resulting in the doors closing on some poor individual's body part
common courtesy people
it doesnt take much time or effort to PRESS DOOR OPEN now, does it


then there are those who sneakily hide smaller articles of clothing under bigbigbig sweaters/skirts etc when they go to the fitting rooms
so that they can try on more than 3 pieces at one shot
if you've got 4 items i really dont mind you doing that because i can understand that queueing up ALL over again just to try on one additional item is utterly tedious
but when you sneak in a bloody mofo' 3-4 items on top of that
now thats just plain NASTY and i'd really like to SMITE those evil 'offenders'
grrrrr



singaporeans have changed much over the past few years
people are friendlier, more helpful, less surly
noticeably so
but if you're talking about becoming a truly 'gracious society'
then
we've got a bleedin' long way more to go, baby

and just like that
carolling season has begun


the Ministry of Foreign Affairs has such beeeautiful grounds
not to mention a rather spiffy interior too
their cafeteria looks like some lushlushlushposhposhposh restaurant
i want to be a diplomat now
so i can work there
wahhaha
tis a pity i didnt have my camera around with me or else i'd have taken MORE PHOTOS
so nice i tell you


and singing at the esplanade is always a nice thing
today was no exception


and i've always thought the sommerset bar was boring
(whyyy go there when there's new asia bar nearby eh eh eh?!)
tonight was no exception
i can understand why its closing down come dec 31st
haw.


pictures, as usual




may.me.kim. May calls this the MOUNTAIN photo. -chortle-


the choir walking back to the bus after the MFA performance


back entrance of the MFA building (?)


may.me.toshi EXTRA in bkground. in the bus


may.me in our dressing room at the esplanade


may.jarrod.me post perfomance at the esplande concourse


aaron.may.hann.me at the concourse


hann.me.bean post performance at the sommerset bar


bean.yu hsien.aaron still at the sommerset bar

and no
contrary to popular belief
mango is now not completely bereft of clothes thanks to the killershoppashoppamaniac duo of may and myself
because we didn't get to go, dammit
but!
we will go, sooooon
when is the next problem


however, thanks to me mum--
i did get 2 pairs of black heels at CK
and some funkymama embroidered skirt going REAL CHEAP (ie: $15) at this mini boutique at amara hotel
plus i had my first taste of exquisite thai food since 2002 (!!! woah its been that long!!!)
and that made me a very happy child indeed


i need new music
currently i yearn for the Kill Bill soundtrack
the Love, Actually one would do very nicely as well
and even though i find all his songs alarmingly similar in terms of tune/sound/lyrics etc
i still want to give Josh Groban's new album a spin
because his voice is HEAVENLY
and Café del Mar's 20th anniversary double CD set is simply screaming for my attention


and speaking of music
the ACJC CHOIR will be singing its Christmas repertoire at the Esplanade Concourse tomorrow, the 16th of Dec
and on weds, the 17th of Dec
2 sessions each day
from 7.30pm-- 8pm and then again at 8.30--9pm
so come on down if ya'll can


right now i still need to find a classic little black dress
and pick up my bronzey earrings
and then i'll be all set for christmas partying i think
i can't wait to meet up with adrian (my hunkahunkalicious bodyguard of sorts haha) and wj (CLOWWWN PRINCE) and the rest again its been ages!


>>>


i still cant quite believe i'm going to SYDNEEEEEEEYYYY in less than a month!!!
once i actually pay for my tickets i think the amazement and excitement will finally set in
puh-leeease let stacey be going back to do summer school then at least we'll get freee accomodation hahaha


>>>


oh f*ck what did i do to my corsage
the orchid keeps bleedin' fallin' off
DIE
i need a new one by tmr or else i CANT PERFORM
-panicks-
helpheeelpheeeelllp

i found my old template!
huzzah.


anyhooow
more photos
this time of the choir in action (and then some)




watching the madams intently



some hands on action from wilfred and some j1 chap



eleena.me.huiling.



feli h.rachel.kim.me.



joel.may.feli.me.donald. (i'm laughing at some random thing by the side. whyyy)



the junior girlies and mememe (i feel old now)



kim.donald.me.may.



the 2 lurrrveeebirdddsss ie: joel and may

Love, Actually is in actual fact a FANTASTICALLY SPLENDIFEROUS FILM
go watch it everyone
you will laugh and you will cry
what more do you want from a movie eh?
i'm glad unkle eu genie agreed to watch it instead of boring old farty master & commander.
wahaha
and the stoicism of the women in the film!
woaah
am impressed
am inspired!


and as for the diet
thanks to eu gene's dastardly evil idea (haha) of eating at ghim moh for breakfast
i think i have now put on another 5kg with my unabashed eating habits
big hips?
no problem
just call me Hippy the Hippo won't you, you nastynasty evil man
grrrrrrrr
you will live to regret this day, dude


-weeps-
hippy the hippo
i cant believe it


and once again i'm going to say--
everybody go watch LOVE, Actually
it ish da BOMB alright


there's just something about british men
hardly as handsome as those hollywood hunkahunka actors
but they simply oooze this classic gentlemanly charm
and that's something i'd choose over the smarminess of tha americanos any day


and yes
i most DEFINITELY want to marry the very delish rodrigo santoro now
nearly ruptured a few capillaries when i saw him onscreen today
-squeals swoons and dies-
viggo who?

ohbuggerit


i was so happy when the travel agent told me tickets to sydney would only cost me around $890 (on qantas)
however
after raising my hopes and spirits
she cruelly brought them crashing down again with just. 4. words.
sorry, no more seats


DAAAMN


so i checked SQ
no more flights out on the 3rd
so i booked my flight for the 4th instead
but THANK HEAVENS she managed to secure the VERY LAST seat for my return on the 10th
but tickets will cost me a whopping $1050
not inclusive of accomodation
nor food
nor shopping
etc etc


i've got till the 19th of dec to convince my parents to allow me to go
once i make payment it should be alright
but BEFORE THAT
i've gotta be the most goody goody child on earth
which means--


no more full day shopping/eating outings (f*ck)
no more late nights out for dinner or movies or whatever (f*ck f*ck)
absolutely NO clubbing. period. (f*ck f*ck f*ck!!!!!!!!)


but its gonna be oh-so worthwhile
if it means me being able to go


now i need suggestions, suggestions, folks!
does anyone know of any place that's relatively el cheapo and not too dodgy to stay at in sydney?
puh-leaase helpch meee outttt alright and comment dammit


and today i was a very bad girl
i was at paragon
and of course i just had to check out Miss Sixty
and because i really couldn't TAHAN anymore
i bought my top (!!!)
-hides face in shame-
so there goes another $129 (dammit it was fr the luxury line. thats why so exxxx)
but well i managed NOT to buy a gorgeous dress, 2 pairs of lovely shoes and 3 other funkyarsed tops
and that's a REMARKABLE display of self control from me


>>>


got the results of my ROOM ALLOCATION today!!!
AH HUZZZZZAH I GOT ASTEN just like i wanted (i think)
room 083 (is that A1 or A2? wing? i need to email yen i got A2! woooooohoo. now all i need are NICE neighbours. cute & nice ones would be even better. wahhaha i'm so desperate)
THANK HEAVENS it is NOT that grotty tiiiny room at vines any longer
now i can actually go invest in a telly-vision for the room
huzzah huzzah


oh oh
that duncan fr blue is old news, dahhlings (!!!)
if there was one man i could marry
i'd marry rodrigo santoro
in an instant
mah gaaawd he's hot



+++





yeah, RIGHT
i must've been tired when i took this one

my digi cam's BACK with me finally
and so to mark this joyous occasion
here are picpics of my lurrvely girlie friends


that's amelia without the speccys
she'll be one of rjc's top 'a' level students i'm sure when the results come out next year
and then that's sarah in the baby blue tee
she'll be one of acjc's top 'a' level students too
gah all these geeeniuses!


put the 3 of us together and we can eat Häagen-Dazs empty

ok so i've come to realise that i am a person with minimal, if not non-existent self control

it ain't just food, folkies

it is SHOPPING that will ultimately be my undoing

was calculating expenses just now
and i've spent more than $400 since coming back
and its been less than a MONTH!!!!

plus that's not including all my meals out, movies, transport blah blah blah
oh gawwd
just thinking about it makes my hair stand on end

i.need.to.stop.shopping.

and i'm quite determined to STICK to it this time
because sydney trip is going to cost me an arm and a leg and maybe even a torso

so i'm officially stopping all frivolous spending starting TOMORROW, 10/12/03

but oh NOOO i've just spotted a GORGEOUS miss sixty vintage deconstructed sequinned top that i've literally fallen in lurrrve with
and it sure as hell ain't gonna come cheap (ie: $70-80++)

HEEELPPP!

someone point out the nearest shopaholics anonymous to me, quick

i really need need need need to find a job now
trippin' to sydney's gonna set me back by at least SGD1100+++
ACK

i'm willing to do anything for moolah right now

well
almost anything
sexual favours not included

haw haw

BLOOODDDYYYYY HELLLLLL
-tears at hair-

someone kill me for being stupid and/or hanging out w daft friends

the story begins like this.

my fave hot chick Clo is in town for a nice long break
everyone say "HULLO CLO"

anyhow
went out with darling clo
and while we were walking in town
we were both stopped by this hyper uber cool lookin' chica with a megawatt smile + brilliant flawless skin + killer figure (you get the drift)
she was some talent-scout from some local agency (can't for the life of me remember the NAME!!!)
asking if we were keen on appearing in some teevee commercial/ try our hands at modelling for some event happening in a few weeks time

this makes it TWO TIMES lucky in the past week
once with vaj and once w clo
the first time i said "ehmm but i'm studying overseas so i reckon i might not be free" without thinking
afterwhich of course i wanted to kick meself in the head because I AM LOOKING FOR A BLOODY TEMP JOB RIGHT NOW and gee whiz anything's fine by me
and modelling doesn't seem too bad an option eh (wahahaha yeh right. i think if they carefully scrutinized me then they'd probably go "hmm maybe not her arse is too big and chest is too flat" like the evilnasty judges on whassatshow? Are you Hot? HAW.)

then today when this other chick approached us again i was determined to get a card or smth
but NO-OOH!
my plan didn't well, plan

i love clo but sometimes i do so want to murder her
she just went "Oh i'm not living in singapore and my friend here isn't interested in small things like these-- she's looking for bigger and better opportunities"
and i was like WTF?!?!?!
i was literally standing there with my mouth slightly agape in horror

naturally happy smiley chica was no longer so happy smiley after being SNUBBED by DARLING CLO like that
and get this--
here's clo's reason for saying what she said (direct quote):

"i wanted to make life difficult for her. she was too pretty for my liking! i hate gorgeous chicks sauntering around showing off their tight bodies and perfect teeth! stupid git!"

[insert dramatic pause here]

and then after seeing my look of absolute amazement/shock/horror

clo screams "OMG we could've modelled together! I CAN'T BELIEVE I JUST DID THAT"

-smacks head in anguish-

so NATURALLY i didnt get to ask for any card

which means despite me nearly getting the chance to get a rather coolio job TWICE

i bloodybloodybloody didn't

y'think i'll be three times lucky?
somehow i think not

-sobs into pillow-

i need MONEEEH and i needs it NOW

on a totally unrelated note

i've been asked this on many an occasion
"what is LOVE?"

and i've always supplied them with a plethora of candy-coated answers
but in truth i should have told them this instead

i cannot describe love, but i certainly feel it to be a rationalist concept

and if rationalism is the reliance on reason as the best guide for belief and action--

then the whole concept of "love" is a farce

isn't it?

now that's food for thought

to the COMM'02--
i LOVE you guys and i really really miss singing with ya'll
we MUST have another comm reunion alrighty

shopping w may and kim wasnt fantastic
day started off with lots of DRAMA involving dented bumpers and scratches and such
poor gorilla.
and methinks may is convinced i'm colour blind now (dirty green/brown colour deficiency eh haha)
met dennny + his friend jeremy at taka
haha now den's convinced he's FAMOUS because kim recognised him from my photos
-claps-
anyhoo
despite me not finding the right size for my precious zara skirt
us 3 girls still ended up getting an item each so i suppose the day wasn't wasted (haha)
and of course going out w the gorilla and the kitten is always a treat!

jc2 welcome tea was fun as well
ate lots and lots and there are just some juniors/seniors who CRACK me up
so funneh!
was goodly seeing them
but ALAS
tis in fact rather sad because i reckon tonight was one of the last times i'd ever see some of them
hopefully our paths will cross again sometime in the future

yes i am officially miserable now
i can't believe i have to leave EVERYBODY who's dear to me here again in feb
DON'T.BLOODY.WANT.TO.GO.BACK.
time is whizzing by way too quickly
i want it to be november stillllllll

either that or can i pack all o' my friends in a huuuge box and ship you to tassie with me?
pretty please?
i NEEDS YA'LL DESPERATELY
can't function without mah homies a'iii

-cries-

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hokay i think i'm going mad from all that thinking about the loneeelyloneeely future
because i find myself STRANGELY attracted to this fella from that infernal boyband BLUE
-hidesfaceinshame-
but omg
omg omg
isn't he adorable
he looks like brad pitt
only younger
ooooooh


and speaking of brad pitt
he makes me want to swoon when i look at the Troy teaser poster
haha
if every man on earth looked as delectable as that i think the world would be a much happier place for us FEMALES (and not forgetting the boys who like boys) innit?

lau pa sat dinner last night was bloody yummmmms
ate a heckuva lotta satay
and i must say now i know what kinda girl turns justin on
tee hee hee

shopping w vajeepoos aka peiyi today was fandabidoubledozi too!
the girl is SUCH a sweetie
she listens to me complain and whine and all aiyoh sometimes i feel so bad
and we found loadsa goodstuff to buy too
so all was good--
until i saw a few individuals i DID NOT want to see
awww man.
chipper mood was instantly wrecked
but ah well.
life goes on
and on a happier note--
i met stacey and dorcas while in town today!
glad to see they're both back from aussieland as well
wheee.
anyways VAJ if you're reading this--
it was REALLY fun today we gotta go out again soon
and show me around your hall!

dinner w unkle eu gene my fave lawyerly chappie was tres amusing well
traffic was a BIAATCH though
and trying to find a parking space at raffles city was even worse
yumyum dinner at raffles hotel (cant for the life of me rem the restaurant name. smth deli. hrm)
and thanks to him i've found my newest indulgence
gimme an OREO COOKIE SHAKE and i'll be your slave for life
mmm.
-licks lips-
then off we toddled to new asia bar
had ONE lychee martini and a few gulps of whatever eu gene had and i got a little hiiiigh
pathetic innit
music was so-so
definitely not as good as expected
and the dancefloor was PACKED
i felt like a SARDINE i tell you
got pushed around a whole lot
toes were stepped on even more
now my little toe is a mess because is bleeding and all
euurrgh
not nice.

k i'm still grouchy at the thought of seeing the few people i saw today
eeeeek
horrigible
hopefully a good night's sleep will cure me of all residual ill-feelings
yes.
g'night world

{10 things i hate about...}

i'm cramping up and i hate it hateithateit
had to cancel on my darling vajeepoos as a result
urghurghurgh
pleasepleaseplease let it go away so that i don't need to cancel on justin tonight as well

i'm supremely grouchy and uncomfy now
and this DAMNABLE BLEAK GREY MUGGY BLAAAH WEATHER isn't bloody helping either
-shakes fist-

and why is it that--
when i stay in
it doesn't rain
when i go out
it POURS
-roarrrrrrr-

when is the SUN GOING TO SHINE SHINE SHINEEE?!??!
i need good weather so i can start my exercise regime!
tennis! running! more tennis! more running!
i'm SICK of doing 200 situps daily already
and what's the point of having a lurrvely new bikini (currently sitting morosely in its baggie) when there's ab-so-bloody-lutely no chance to wear it aye?!
my sentosa sessions with may & co. and denny & co. had better bleedin' materialize before the NUS terms starts
because after that all my friends will be STUDYINNNG and i veelll be left straaanded with...
NO.FRIENDS.
-bawls-

why cant my parents go overseas for more than a weeeek
i like this freedom
i enjoy living alone
i like waking up at 10am
i like eating as and when i like, and eating whatever i like (ah. now i see why them love handles are stubbornly refusing to disappear)
i like flinging my clothes all over the place and not having to pick 'em up and fold them neatly one by one by one
i like not having to make my bed
i like watching the telly + yammering on the phone for hours on end
i like turning up the volume of my hi-fi to ear splitting levels
i like having no insanely unreasonable curfew
and most of all
I LIKE THE SOUND OF BLISSFUL SILENCE--
NO NAGGING!
whyyyyy do they have to come back so soon
(disclaimer: its not that i don't love the parentals-- i do! its just that i wish they'd loosen up a bit and come to the realiazation that i ain't 12 anymore)

ok so that wasn't quite 10 things but its quite enough for now
i'm sure as the afternoon progresses i'll have more things to complain about
rahahaha

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oooh oooh
i have to say
crabtree & evelyn makes these divine biscuits called Pure Butter Chocolate Dreams
very. very. very. yumms.
also very addicktive
but also very unhealthy
i mean, just look at the name of the damn thing
PURE BUTTER! Chocolate Dreams!

DIE.
i want one nowwww
but NO.
i will NOT give in
purebutterchocdreams=evilfattyfood
keep thinking of the love handles! THE CELLULITE!

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fuckitall

i have zero self control when it comes to food
shameless

so i think i'll take a walk to the kitchen now and get meself a biccy

{This is the post with the MANY WORDS}

more of these test type thingys because i'm bored
the handwriting analysis test that i nicked off steph's blog is pretty interesting.

Regarding letter size... you clicked "Medium". Because your writing is neither really tiny or really large, this aspect of your writing is not a significant piece of your personality puzzle. We know you are not as intense as those tiny writers and you aren't as "flighty" as some of those really large writers. So, you fall into the middle-of-the-road on this character trait.

Concerning the letter slant of your sample (slant reveals emotional outlay)... you chose "Vertical". You use logical sound judgments to make decisions. You\re ruled by your head, not your heart. You tend to be cool, calm and collected and are good under pressure. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, you have poise. (HAHAHA. ME?! I TEND TO BE CALM? COOL? COLLECTED? I think not.)

Some may see you as "detached" or "unemotional". It's not that you don't feel emotions, you just have more discernment when and with whom you express your inner most feelings. You keep them inside longer than most people do. (If your writing is very large you can be very social, friendly and talkative, but still emotionally logical.)

The first time someone makes you mad, you probably won't say anything. But, you'll mentally put a mark on the wall and keep your mouth shut until they piss you off again and again. Then, BOOM! You'll explode, all that pent-up anger comes pouring out! And, you won't feel any regret at all, because you know they deserved it.

It may sound harsh, but you're ruled by self-interest. In emotional situations you ask yourself, "What's best for me?" And, unlike others, you actually have the discipline to follow your logic rather than your emotional whims.

In a relationship, you tend to show your affection by the things you DO rather than the things you SAY. The only exception is if your mate has expressed a need to hear "I love you" on a daily basis, then you'll gladly express this out of respect for your partner's needs. (this i love you nonsense is DEFINITELY not true though)

Looking at the letter "i", you chose "i-dot is just about normal". This is a good trait to have, because it shows loyalty... a true commitment to stand by those people or ideas that you truly believe in.

Looking at the letter "i", you also chose "Slashed i-dot". This leads me to think that you were irritated or angry at the time the i-dot was written. So... who're you mad at? (EH?! cacat.)

Oh boy... the letter "o"... this is a very insightful letter. When you picked "No inner loops, letter is clean and crisp", that told me that you are very blunt, candid and brutally honest. You are also very straightforward when asked your opinion. You find secrets and deceit just unnecessary. But, most people are not as revealing as you tend to be. So, just a suggestion... if your significant other asks, "Do you think I need to lose a little weight?", just pretend that you have to go the bathroom and leave the room. And remember the deadly question... "Do I look fat in this dress?" Hint: LIE!

Excellent characteristic!!! When I asked about the shape of the tops of the humps in the letters "m" and "n", you chose "Vary between rounded and pointed". This is the best of both kind of thinkers. You can process information both in a cumulative/procedural fashion and also in a comprehensive/fast fashion. This means that you can adapt to the people around you. If you're with a slow talker, you can slow down and explain every detail. If you're talking to someone who only wants the "bottom-line", big picture facts, you can speed up your thinking.

This is an important trait! When I asked you how high the t-bar is crossed on the stem of the letter "t", you chose "Midway up the stem". This tells me that you set goals that are realistic, practical, and obtainable and that your self-esteem is good, but not super high. I would suspect you still have an aversion to taking too much of a risk and you'll hedge on the side of security.

The good news is your confidence is strong enough to leave a really bad situation and take those first key steps toward living your dreams. People that cross their "t's" in the upper middle are pragmatic and secure with themselves. But, there are still more dreams to achieve... so stretch yourself even more!

When asked how the t-bar ends, you chose "Knife point toward the right". This tells me that you are a bit of a smart-ass. Uhmm... sorry... the politically correct term is "sarcastic".

You see, sarcasm is a wonderful means of defending your ego. Often this sarcasm comes out as a wry sense of humor. People love that. But, if you're at all insecure, it can be directed at others and be a bit caustic and hurtful. Might I suggest that you bite your tongue next time you want to pipe in with a smart comment.

This is a great trait! Concerning your lower case t's, the last question deals with the TILT of the t-bar. You chose "Upward toward sky"... which tells me that you're optimistic, forward thinking, and a self-starter. Optimism is one key trait of successful and happy people. So, even if your life sucks today, you automatically assume that it will be better tomorrow!

Concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Tail forms a "v" shape". This trait generally signifies an aggressive tendency... but, that doesn't have to be a negative. If it's channeled correctly, you can be assertive and have good initiative... if not, the result of this trait would be violence.

It's your choice... which way will it be?


Good for you... concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Narrow... some loop". This tells me that you are very selective about who you let in your inner loop. You are choosy about your relationships... no one can accuse you of being "easy"... that's for sure.

Concerning your y's and g's, you chose "Medium loop". This tells me that you have healthy physical drives... yes, that means both sexually... and in your ambition. So, you aren't a prude but you're not a slut either... you just "like" it.

When I asked you if the first letter of your signature was larger than the other letters, you indicated that it was. This tells me you have a strong sense of who you are and a healthy "ego". I mean ego in a good way... it takes an expanded sense of self-importance to get things done and demand the world give you what you deserve.

So, your larger letters in your signature indicate a tendency to show the world your self-assured and confident side. The larger the letters... the stronger the ego. If you want to know your full self-image, re-read the section on where you cross your t-bar.

You checked that your signature was underlined... this shows that you are both self-reliant and yearn to lead others. You aren't afraid to draw attention to yourself and take charge... you have confidence in your own abilities and inner strength.


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a long time ago i used to be an ENFP (the "idealist" personality type) on every single personality test i took
however
times change
as do people
and i think i've changed quite a bit
because now i'm an ESTP (the "artisan" type) apparently

You're action-oriented...pragmatic (look it up!)...outgoing and realistic. In situations that require resourcefulness, you use your quickness and flexibility to find the most efficient route to accomplishing whatever needs to be done.

You are lively....entertaining...fun...like to be where the action is.... like to participate fully in what's going on.... you are direct with your comments and don't mince words.... you are at your best in situations that require an orientation to the present and a direct, no-nonsense practical approach.

You're active, easygoing, and spontaneous...extremely realistic...curious and keen observers...charming and popular...you're outgoing, versatile and have an endless supply of jokes and stories for whatever situation you find yourself in...ok, you're funny too! You can be good at easing a tense situation...

You like(d) school because it gives/gave you a place to meet friends and to be involved in activities. Oh, yeah. Education and academics were there too, but you don't care so much about THAT. You're action-oriented...likely to be on a sports team or other after school activities.

You'd rather DO something rather than read about others doing activities. You like hands-on experience...you like it when expectations are realistic and when the explanations for a task are clear. You like teachers that are entertaining and make learning fun and active.

You like crises 'cause you can dive right in and fix things. You like to make things happen quickly.... you're willing to take risks, aintcha? You can take charge readily, ESPECIALLY in crises...you can react and make it work...you love leisure and kicking back...you're probably involved in sports, as a fan if not a player...

You're a daredevil at times...as a fan, you're pretty animated and excitable. you like collecting things related to a hobby...you like people who "live on the edge." A perfect partner for romance would be one you can do fun things with...sharing life's up and downs...you like to use your persuasive- ness and fun-loving nature to win over the opposite sex...

You don't like dull routine, even in your relationships....it makes you feel confined...you're pretty straightforward with the relationship, including recognizing when it's over....

Watch out for these things, though...don't over-rely on improvisation.. while you might like putting out those fires, that's no reason to create an emergency...you'll just overload from stress...don't sacrifice follow- through in your work to meet the problems of the moment...don't get too focussed on material things and ignore the things that count, like other people...stop being so blunt and direct! Think about others' feelings...

now this description is also pretty damned accurate.
except the being "blunt" bit
straightforward, to a certain extent yes; blunt, no
there's a world of a difference
... well at least i don't think i am (ah-ha. therein lies the problem. I dont think i am. hrm)

and an ESFP (still and "artisan") on another test
and an ESFJ (the "guardian") on yet another

conclusion?
what i've suspected for some time has now been proven without a doubt
i've lost my 'youthful idealism' (haw)
i've turned into a person who thinks with her head now instead of her heart
which is good, in a sense
because its less likely for me to get HURT as often as before
and right now i'm inclined to believe that the world is certainly not a beaaauutiiifulll place
nor do i believe in happy endings
things can and usually will, end badly (perhaps its just this funk i'm going through, with all that's happened in the past year and whatnot)

its amazing what a few years of life can do to all those big dreams (GEE. and i've not even hit the big 2-0 yet. what will become of me once i hit 40 eh)

i don't have my head stuck in the clouds anymore

i rather miss that feeling, in a way =(


j-j-jaaaadeeeddddd!!! (imagine steven tyler belting out that song and that's roughly how i feel right now)


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oh oh and i realise why i've missed maycheong so much
she's one of the only girls here that i can really TALK to
as in REALLY really talk to
no need for small talk
no superficiality (eewk) whatsoever
i can not see her for months and months and yet our friendship just picks up right where we left off when we next see each other
and she's always so supportive
what a BLESSING it is to have a friend like her
having her over for dinner and doing all our catching up was absolutely fandabidozi
i hope we get to do more of that again soon

if you value your life
or sanity
or happiness

then

DO NOT

i repeat

DO NOT WATCH TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE
(although now i know lido doesn't give a rat's arse about checking IDs when you buy tickets. or maybe i just look old. yeh.)

nearly suffered from a bad case of reverse peristalsis (ie: i nearly threw up) after watching a few scenes
and i screamed SO many times during the movie + nearly cried twice because i was just so disgusted and horrified by it all
number of F-words yelled out in horror: countless
and i was gripping alvin's arm SO hard at one point of time that he was like "eh eh please my arm's cramping up already you've gotta let go"
lets just say his shirt's also been yanked outta shape by me too
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawd.

thank goodness for brother bear after that
rather simple minded plot but at least its HAPPY AND CUTESY AND well, non bloody

and china black was pretty fun last night
except the music was tooo damned loud
loud to the extent that my ears were still ringing when i woke up this morning, which is rather worrying come to think of it

alrighty.

once again.

DO NOT WATCH TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE.
is NOT nice.

check it!


Joyce:
You have a love of travel and adventure, and you enjoy sports. You also have a very strong sense of fair play and want justice. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. Your independence and freedom are important to you. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.


Alycia:
You are adventurous with a tendency to be foolhardy. You are aggressive and definitely have leadership abilities. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You must learn to give the same freedom to others that they want for themselves. You need to learn concentration and not to scatter your mental energies. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You have a need to be up front.


Sim:
Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You are always involved with projects and things to do.


Hrm
i reckon to a certain extent, its rather true of me
uncanny, how these internetty thingys can come up with random descriptions that more often than not, seem fairly accurate innit?